Wow, it's Christmas time again!!! It seems like just last week summer was starting.
This has been a full fall. School started into full swing. Volleyball season also took a large amount of time. The kids joined a 4-H group that a friend started. After volleyball season, Ginger attended an American Heritage Girl meeting and decided she wanted to participate. Of course, Chris continues with the scouts and has worked hard this fall earning pins.
In November, my brother in law's brother passed away. I went to Rockfish and took mom to church and the services for Billy. He had a massive heart attack all of a sudden and was gone. He was in his early 70's, but I have learned that no matter the age or expectation you are never prepared for the great amount of loss you feel. I knew Billy, had hunted with him as a teenager and saw him at Dad's funeral. He was a kind and generous man. Always had a smile on his face. For me personally, it has been very difficult to get into any holiday mood. I miss my dad tremendously.
I haven't been attending church much. I did go on Sunday, but honestly, it was all I could do to keep from bawling my eyes out. I guess I am suppressing the emotions. Then, for Ginger's AHG ceremony Sunday afternoon, Diane (my sister) comes in bringing Mom as a surprise. It made me cry.
This will be my first Christmas without him. I know he is in a far better place, but he is gone. Never again will I go home and see his face, hear his voice, or feel his touch. Selfish you say, don't judge until you walk in the shoes. I had no idea until it happened to me.
